I was more or less in the same boat as you anons. What I seriously regret is not getting into occultism, because that isn't the main problem, but the path that eventually led me to it. I wish a very long series of events never happened, along with wishing that I stayed away from imageboards. I was already a defective human being in the first place, but now all I am is a completely broken man yearning for death thanks to what I have got myself into.
Sorry for ruining the mood of the board.